work work work

Man, it’s kinda hard being the only man in the house. SubhanAllah I did so much work yesterday. My dad is out of the country right now and my brother just had to go off and get married, so yea, im the man of the house now.

Lets see, I think i started off cleaning the living room, because it was all messed up since we basically turned our house into a shelter since the hurricane hit. Lots of people dont have power so weve had people sleeping over and chilling at our house. Then I had to clean my old room(i dont have a room anymore – long story). Then I think I vacuumed and didnt a lot of other housework. Dang, where are the women in my house!? oh well, lets not go there.. I might as well count myself in as a woman in my house.. I just recently made some heart-shaped brownies……………… yea, lets not go there either, something I am trying to forget. Wow. then I went outside and raked all the leaves. omg. I HATE leaves. There are too many leaves. Alhamdulillah, though… I got to meet my neighbors. Pretty nice people. I think they own “Ron Carter” or something, because they always have like 5 Hummers on the driveway. Then I didnt all this other work outside and then went inside and crashed on the floor heh. By that time it was already almost iftaar time so I went ahead and took a shower. man subhanAllah.

Whats worse is when you do all this work and its goes by unnoticed. As if you didnt do anything. As if all you did was work your butt off – for nothing. But then again, it didnt exactly to unnoticed. There was atleast one witness. Allah. And as long as I please Him I guess thats all that should matter. Im going to have to do a lot of work, but im sure there is a reason. Im sure there is a reason that every single time my dad leaves to go out of the country, something crazy happens in my house that ends up falling on my shoulders. Alhamdulillah. I think this is Allah’s way for preparing me. Preparing me for new things. For a new life. Id like to be prepared. Id like to not have to depend on my parents for everything. Last time my dad left, I got hit really bad in my car and I had to deal with all this insurance crap. Alhamdulillah, looking back… I really learned a lot. Thats the funny thing about the tests that Allah gives.. you might not like them at the moment, but after it is over, you realize how much you have benefited from them, and in a way, are greatful for it. Alhamdulillah. Now I just need to get a job. And then learn how to manage my time wisely. Ill have school, work, dawah activities, and family time. Man I really need to learn how to manage my time. and give each its equal right. InshaAllah I will keep busy. Thats how I like it. Busy busy. That way there is less time for me to mess up. If I am bored and not doing anything, shaytaan will be able to get at me.

But not this month…….. hes locked up