Day of Ashoora. I wake up for suhoor. eat. pray. go back to sleep- and then have the most craziest dream ever.
I wont go into details because I have heard about not telling people your about your bad dreams. But this wasnt a bad dream. Im not sure if it was a good dream either. Im just going to take it as a rahmah from Allah. And as a reminder.
So in my dream, I am dying. Not a painful death but a death none the less. To die I had to disappear into a forest(this is one of those really random dreams btw). After I died, I found my self in a room where I was waiting in line to be judged. There was an old monitor screen in the room and woman appeared on the screen. All the people standing in the line had to put their 2 fingers on the screen while the woman on the other side of the monitor connected her two fingers with yours. At that moment, the person would be transported to either Hell or Heaven.
I stood in line waiting to be transported. All of the sudden, a fear came over me. What if I go to Hell!? What if my bad deeds are more than my good deeds?! Why have I been thinking that I am going to heaven?! And I can tell you now, that this fear that came over was worse than any other fear that I have ever felt. I felt like this was really happening to me! At this point I started to remember so many sins that I had committed. big and small. Even all the times that I lied to someone. I think I remembered lying to my parents once(in the dream), and that one hit me real hard. As I got closer and closer to the monitor screen, I started to get more scared. Why did I treat sins like they did not matter in the dunya? Why did I not care? How foolish could I have been?
Then it was my turn. I put my fingers on the monitor screen………and then some other stuff happened and I cant really remember it.
What I got out of it: Every single sin that you do in this life – no matter how big or small it is – the weight that it will carry on the Day of Judgment will be enough to make you think you are going straight to hell. Its funny how when we commit sins we dont think of them much, but think about how much they are going to mean to us on the Day of Judgment. When you are standing there waiting for your book of deeds to fall down. Will it fall into your right hand or will it fall into your left hand? That moment.. where you see the book coming down to you.. you will regret every single moment of your life when you disobeyed Allah. When you did something that angered Him. When you were wasting when instead you should have been asking Allah to forgive you. You may not think of it much right now, but then again, you arent standing waiting to be judged..not yet. But verily, that time will come. Dont screw yourself over. After you do something bad, after you disobey Allah — REPENT. Dont wait. Do is asap. Dont let shaytaan trap you.
