So I started this blog yet I cant think of anything to write. SubhanAllah. I really need to start channeling my thoughts better instead of letting them all come out whenever, uncontrolled. Last night as I lay on the ground after coming from a certain speaker workshop, I couldnt help but think that so much of what I do and am doing is all to please my parents. I would go and study Islam if I had the chance, but alhamdulillah, maybe Allah has other plans for me. I tried to study and go into medicine, yet I was miserable for a whole semester. I dont think I would be able to survive a minimum of eight years studying this stuff. Alhamdulillah, maybe Allah has a better plan for me…inshaAllah 
Now I am trying to go on this journey of studying accounting, yet I cant help but feel this weird feeling that I am heading down a long road of hardships. InshaAllah I come out victorious!
My parents really want me to make a lot of money. But I really dont want a lot of money. They say that if I have a lot of money I can donate it and get ajr. SubhanAllah, how many of todays rich people end up making that money to donate. Im not saying I want to be poor or anything. I just want to live a decent life, and to my parents… the word “decent” has a very different definition in their dictionary.
All I want to do is get a job and start my family. Allahu Akbar, just thinking about having a family brings a smile to my eyes.
ok im not really in the mood to write right now, not much going through my head:)
oh yea…
women are fitnah.
down with money!
i agree the ‘decent’ life is the way to go. tho i’m kinda leaning towards poor, so much more peaceful imo.
yes my love. women are fitnah. I agree with you on that much.
this is the thing, what are you going to do with this time. You have to have a plan. ANYTHING. Allah is the best of all planners, but you still NEED a plan.
What do you like, what interests you, if you want to study Islam, then yes, do it. Sure maybe you can’t major in it, but do something that you LOVE, whether it’s a major or not.
Don’t worry about the money, Allah will provide. But you have to KNOW what you want out of dunya.
At the end of the day, none of this matters. The only thing that will matter is what you did for the sake of Allah, and what intentions you had in your heart.
How strong is your anima? how strong can it get? Only as strong as you will let it.
So don’t fret, keep your head high, focus on what you want to do. Yes there are thing no one wants to do, but it is just as much a test as it is trying to stay away from women. You are MEANT to hate this place.
Love what you do, Live life one step ahead, Be grateful.
Inshallah you go to Jannah love.